Last night I had one of those shitty dreams again in which I was on stage and I was just wearing my dance belt and for the rest I was totally naked!
Everybody else on stage was in full costume and rehearsing their choreography and I was the only one that didn’t know anything about the performance.
Eventhough I tried to find out something before the curtain would go up, nothing helped.
I felt so helpless and so ashamed that I just wanted to disappear somehow, but in those dreams this is never possible. I also dream a lot about not being able to find my costume just before the performance or not being able to remember any choreography during a very important audition.
I have these dreams since I stopped dancing and they just keep returning regularly.
And sometimes I even know that it is a dream, while I am dreaming it. But there is no way out, except for waking up.
Do you maybe have the same kind of weird dreams, that keep returning?
A few weeks ago I dreamed that I was doing an audition for a very important and well known dance company and that I was doing well untill I realised that I was in an audition for “CATS” the musical instead of an audition for a dance company.
In real life I actually never intended to do musicals, but due to my height (1.94 meters or 6.4 inches) I had problems entering dance companies in general.
My first job that I got was “West Side Story” and after that I did “Cats” and that’s where this dream comes from.
Eventhough my last performance is already more than 10 years ago (it was a theatre piece in Münster, Germany and it was mid July 2010), appearantly I still have a lot to digest concerning dance and theatre in general.
Do you have the same experience?
The fortunate thing of dreams is that one is processing a lot of stuff unconsciously.
And I thought I had processed a lot of stuff already a long time ago…oops?!
I have nasty dreams in stressfull times as well. I was told to repeat the dream and alter the bad situation in an acceptable ending. It sometimes worked well.